Feels Like A Spin Pole

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Feels Like A Spin Pole

So today I went shopping, and I guess a pole dancer’s shopping routine ends up being a little bit different from the rest of the girls. I say this ‘cause rather than spending my money on shoes or miniskirts, I bought ankle warmers (Bolivia is getting colder) some warm up leggings (unlike the leggings you go out with these ones are pyjama like, with flowers) and of course… the mini short.

Although I was effectively shopping I couldn’t help to realize how frustrated I felt since probably next week it’ll be my second week without pole-ing. I have contracted the worst ever kind of sickness for us polefreaks and that my friends is called labyrinthitis.

What’s that?… I know, I know… let me shed some light upon this rare disease for ya’ll… according to Wikipedia: Labyrinthitis is an ailment of the inner ear and a form of unilateral vestibular dysfunction. It derives its name from the labyrinths that house the vestibular system, which senses changes in head position. Labyrinthitis can cause balance disorders, vertigo, hearing loss and tinnitus.

Well, Those Balance Disorders?

Not so good. But the real reason I bring this up is because they remind of my first experience almost a year ago when I started the wonderful discipline of pole dancing. I didn’t have any kind of illnesses back then but I was as uncoordinated then as I am now with the labyr-whatever-fml-thitis. I started pole dancing when me and my boyfriend were “taking a break” back then, of course, I thought that the whole taking a break thing was a bunch of BS. So I decided to give a shot at something I had never tried before (and if I might add, was very interested in, but when I asked my good ol’ Dad that to pay for pole he told me to f-off “that’s for strippers!”). Anyway, I had the money, I had the interest, was heartbroken and in need of an ego boost so I called, I went and didn’t conquer.

When I got there, I saw my pole instructor, she had (has, and they all have) the body of a champion and I thought to myself “well aren’t you in the wrong place?” I have never, ever been strong, nor flexible, nor fit nor nothing, in fact, at Sunday mornings I like to sing “I am the walrus” ‘cause I was one, I’d laugh in the face of fitness and diet. Even as a little girl I was different, more like a nerd instead of being that kind of child running around and doing stuff.

But, as you can be guessing by now, I decided to stay. I stared myself in the mirror, looked myself in the eye and said “you may be a walrus, but you be an all climbing, all dancing walrus”. When I got back with my oh so pretty boyfriend, he was impressed with what I had accomplished, also very proud ‘cause I finally had found something that I like (and ‘cause I got off my ass, lost some weight and actually got a little bit stronger). When I look back on those days when I thought that I couldn’t do anything and that maybe my body was built in some sort of a different way which made me incapable of achieving beautiful stuff, I realized that I was just dumb, and that I hadn’t found what I liked up to that point. I wasn’t passionate about anything enough to make me push my boundaries. Maybe it’s pole itself which holds that kind of power, or maybe you just gotta find what you’re built for. Just keep in mind that if you don’t try, and push yourself (like I have done with other disciplines) you won’t ever know. I am now looking forward to getting better, ’cause I feel like I’m stacking up dust since I’m not up on my precious pole, well, wasn’t I in the right place?

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About Bianca Ugalde

I usually say that there are two Biancas living inside of me, they both constantly fight about what they want… one wants to party, the other one wants to sleep, one wants to eat chicken wings, the other one wants pizza, one is jealous and insecure, the other one is full of herself… anyway you get the point. However I have found the only thing that brings the two Biancas together and that, my friends is pole dancing.

But please! Don’t confuse yourselves with thoughts of a graceful gazelle performing wonderful and perfect moves…no no no… I’m still far from that, although I have to admit that I have gotten sooooo much better over this almost 9 months that I have been working on this discipline. In fact I can now climb! Yes, that is a great achievement for someone who has failed at every single sport; I can’t even dance properly at a club!

Anyway I have now decided to start writing about it, 'cause most of the people surrounding me are kinda bored of my pole stories. You know, all my friends are getting married, talking about cakes and invitations and me…well… I am getting bruises in weird places, begging my pole instructor to take pictures of my achievements, and pole, indeed is my preferred conversation topic, even my boyfriend is tired of it though.

Stuff I have tried and failed at: I have never been known for being a fit girl, hell! I couldn’t even reach my toes! Not even as a child! (I know how sad, my friends were doing splits and I was like “look! I can make an A with my legs”!) so I thought that maybe I should give up. Maybe my body isn’t made for any type of discipline, in fact, I thought I’d never find a sport that I’d really like. Plus I thought that being a 24 year old person perhaps I wouldn’t be able to achieve anything anyway. I have tried everything really, running, soccer, basketball, went to the gym and weight lifted, tried spinning (I don’t know how to ride a proper bike btw), tried pilates, zumba, fight do…oh I tried everything really. And around 2010 I started out yoga, which I really liked but ‘cause of my work and university schedule I had to quit it, also it was too mellow for me and I was getting quickly bored. Plus my lack of flexibility was extremely frustrating especially when I saw those grannies getting their freak on with “Oh I'm so limber Vanessa." So yeah I thought I’d just give up on my body.

But around the same time as I was trying to find the fitness light I started to watch a lot on TV about how pole dancing was beginning to become a great exercise routine, so both Biancas thought “hey this would be perfect for our rebel asses! Let’s do it” of course first I’d have to find someone doing it in my city (that’ll be Cochabamba Bolivia my fine people, the heart of the third “almost second and a half” world), and second I’d have to find sponsorship from my Dad. So when I found out about the studio (which I now happily attend) and told my Dad what I wanted to do… you’ll be guessing the answer by now so of course it was his money so he had a point.

Last August, I realized that I finally I had my own (enough) money to do it so, I went out and bought a pair of shorts and decided that no matter how much I made a fool of myself. I took my “even bigger than J.Lo’s” ass to the atm, and to the studio after that, decided that my body, and both Biancas were gonna find a common ground and work together as a team. So they did and now “Espacio G” is my second home.

Now, with a little less of fatty tissue, a little more limber and killer guns as arms, oh! and less grey hair (this takes my stress away) I have to confess that, that sunny day when I made up my mind and went to my first class is one of the greatest decisions I have ever made, as the one that I take every day to go no matter how tired I am, (unless I am very sick) I take myself to that perfect place where besides finding my perfect discipline I have found so many great friends.

I don’t how long will it take until I feel graceful and sexy while I hold on to my life to that pole, but each day there’s a new Bianca rising from that studio, the both sides of me converge as one, a better version of myself. I have found out that my body is not useless and that it can achieve great things, beautiful things. This is a wonder Bianca in the making!

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  1. Camelida says:

    My lovely Bianca… I can’t describe how proud i’m for you!! Reading you so motivated, so happy, so full of energy, so thankful!, makes me smile and nod at myself saying: “this had to happen”… I can’t wait to see you pole dancing and shinning!! I’m so happy that with pole dancing you’ve found a place for both Biancas and specially for leaving your frustrations and negative thoughts, that’s the biggest achivment!
    And last but not least, i’m sooo happy about you writing in a new Blog now, as a guest!! Yay!!!
    I love you soooo much my lil sister 🙂

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